Just close my eyes

Just Close My Eyes

(Author - unknown)

Now the tears roll down my cheek

They just prove my mind set’s weak

Could I maybe join my friend

Choose the time my life will end

Leave this world that I despise

Feel my heart stop, close my eyes

Accepting all that we call death

Gasping for my final breath

Pray to God my final time

Commit my final moral crime

Rest in peace, I wish I could

End my life I think I should

Now I sleep pray I don’t wake

Beg the Lord my soul to take

Look up to the darkened skies

Just hold my breath, just close my eyes

Disregard that I exist

Now I leave the world like this

Glancing at the wicked knife

I can’t believe this was my life

Letting down all those who cared

Overlooked, those few seem rare

Life now ripping at the seams

Why now chase those nonsense dreams

Now I start my final trip

I now accept I lost my grip

Journey where my lifeline ends

Viewing where my life begins

Reflect on life, why question why

Accept I’ve failed, just close my eyes

Hope is a funny thing... without it you are empty... there is no future before you... no goodness yet to come.  With it you are strong, you are naive.  There is a happy medium between desperate hope and no hope at all and finding is a struggle for those who have lead tough lives.  But hope can truly break your soul.