In the heart of every man

IN THE HEART OF EVERY MAN

(Anon)

 I know I can’t keep living

For the ones who died before

But as the days keep passing by

I find I miss them all the more

They live only in a world of thoughts

And memories I have stored

And I’ve just begun to see the pain

Of this world I must endure

And I wonder if you’re with me

If you’ll always hold my hand

And I wonder if they’re with me

Watching me from different lands

And I wonder if they see me

As I share and care and give

For it’s with the memory of their deaths

That I shout I want to live

And yet if legacies of love

That they have brought me through the years

Have helped me to love someone else

Fill days with warmth and cheers

And if they’ve helped me laugh once more

Thinking of their smiling eyes

And if they can give me comfort

Bring me peace when someone dies

And if they’ve strengthened my convictions

Helped me realize life goes on

Then they’re death is just a fiction

For they’re never really gone

For through memories and laughter

Through the words I understand

Their sprits live forever

In the heart of every man



I know I've been gone awhile... the Christmas holidays will do that... and I know I've posted this poem before but right now it is very close to my heart.  I was in Swan River for the holidays... and someone close to me lost thier mother.  It's a terrible time of year to lose someone... especially a parent.  I pray that he finds the strength to get through it.  I have trouble finding the words to say in these situations... Probabley because there are no right words... Nothing can ease the pain really.  But this poem elquantly addresses death in a way that lets us hope... Happy New Year to all of you and may you and yours be safe and healthy in 2013.

Please come home

Please Come Home For Christmas

(Performed by: The Eagles)

Bells will be ringing this sad, sad news,
Oh, what a Christmas to have the blues,
My baby's gone, I have no friends,
To wish me greetings once again,

Choirs will be singing Silent Night,
Christmas carols by candlelight,
Please come home for Christmas,
Please come home for Christmas,
If not for Christmas, by New Year's night,

Friends and relations send salutations,
Sure as the stars shine above,
But this is Christmas,
Yes, Christmas, my dear,
It's the time of year to be with the one you love,

So won't you tell me you'll never more roam?
Christmas and New Year's will find you home,
There'll be no more sorrow, no grief and pain,
And I'll be happy, happy once again

Merry Christmas to all of you :)... May you be surrounded by your loved ones and blessed the whole season through :)

The End Of The World

THE END OF THE WORLD (AS WE KNOW IT)

(Performed by: Great Big Sea)

It's the end of the world as we know it, and I feel fine

That's great, it starts with an earthquake, birds,
snakes, an aeroplanes, Lenny Bruce is not afraid.
Eye of a hurricane, listen to yourself churn - world
serves its own needs, dummy serve your own needs. Feed
it off an aux speak, grunt, no, strength, Ladder
start to clatter with fear fight down height. Wire
in a fire, representing seven games, a government
for hire and a combat site. Left of west and coming in
a hurry with the furies breathing down your neck. Team
by team reporters baffled, trumped, tethered cropped.
Look at that low playing! Fine, then. Uh oh,
overflow, population, common food, but it'll do. Save
yourself, serve yourself. World serves its own needs,
listen to your heart bleed dummy with the rapture and
the revered and the right, right. You vitriolic,
patriotic, slam, fight, bright light, feeling pretty
psyched.

[Chorus:]

It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it.
It's the end of the world as we know it, and I feel fine.>br> 

Six o'clock - TV hour. Don't get caught in foreign
towers. Slash and burn, return, listen to yourself
churn. Locking in, uniforming, book burning, blood
letting. Every motive escalate. Automotive incinerate.
Light a votive, light a candle. Step down, step down.
Watch your heel crush, crushed, uh-oh, this means no
fear cavalier. Renegade steer clear! A tournament,
tournament, a tournament of lies. Offer me solutions,
offer me alternatives and I decline.

[Chorus 2x]

The other night I dreamt of knives, continental
drift divide. Mountains sit in a line, Leonard
Bernstein. Leonid Brezhnev, Lenny Bruce and Lester
Bangs. Birthday party, cheesecake, jelly bean, boom! You
symbiotic, patriotic, slam book neck, right? Right.

[Chorus 2x]

Well thought I'd take a little break from Christmas and acknowledge the fact that today is the end of the world.... again.  Yet here I sit at work... at my desk... my kids at school.... If tomorrow is the last day there are a couple things I'd like to put out there before I go.  First... Sushi sucks... If you never ate... don't!  Second... Thank you all for reading...  and If we all wake up tomorrow... take a day off... you earned it!.... Good luck!  

All I want for Christmas

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU

(Performed by: Mariah Carey)

I don't want a lot for Christmas 

There's just one thing I need 

I don't care about the presents 

Underneath the Christmas tree 

I just want you for my own 

More than you could ever know 

Make my wish come true 

All I want for Christmas is... 

You 

I don't want a lot for Christmas 

There's just one thing I need 

I don't care about the presents 

Underneath the Christmas tree 

I don't need to hang my stocking 

There upon the fireplace 

Santa Claus won't make me happy 

With a toy on Christmas day 

I just want you for my own 

More than you could ever know 

Make my wish come true 

All I want for Christmas is you 

You baby 

I won't ask for much this Christmas 

I don't even wish for snow 

I'm just gonna keep on waiting 

Underneath the mistletoe 

I won't make a list and send it 

To the North Pole for Saint Nick 

I won't even stay awake to 

Hear those magic reindeers click 

'Cause I just want you here tonight 

Holding on to me so tight 

What more can I do 

Baby all I want for Christmas is you 

Ooh baby 

All the lights are shining 

So brightly everywhere 

And the sound of children's 

Laughter fills the air 

And everyone is singing 

I hear those sleigh bells ringing 

Santa won't you bring me the one I really need 

Won't you please bring my baby to me... 

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas 

This is all I'm asking for 

I just want to see my baby 

Standing right outside my door 

Oh I just want you for my own 

More than you could ever know 

Make my wish come true 

Baby all I want for Christmas is... 

You 

This IS my favorite Christmas song!  Love it so much... Enjoy people... The season is almost over!

Tapping your phone

SANTA CLAUSE IS TAPPING YOUR PHONE

(Author Unknown)

You'd better watch out,
You'd better not cry,
You'd better not pout;
I'm telling you why.
Santa Claus is tapping
Your phone.

He's bugging your room,
He's reading your mail,
He's keeping a file
And running a tail.
Santa Claus is tapping
Your phone.

He hears you in the bedroom,
Surveils you out of doors,
And if that doesn't get the goods,
Then he'll use provocateurs.

So, you mustn't assume
That you are secure.
On Christmas Eve
He'll kick in your door.
Santa Claus is tapping
Your phone!

Always did thing the whole "Santa Claus is watching" thing was kind of creeping.... this just reinforces that :)  Merry Christmas....

Parady

            Twas The Month After Christmas 
                  Author Unknown

T'was the month after Christmas and all through the house
Nothing would fit me, not even a blouse.

The cookies I'd nibbled, the eggnog I'd taste.
All the holiday parties had gone to my waist.

When I got on the scales there arose such a number!
When I walked to the store (less a walk than a lumber).

I'd remember the marvelous meals I'd prepared;
The gravies and sauces and beef nicely rared,

The wine and the rum balls, the bread and the cheese
And the way I'd never said, "No thank you, please."

As I dressed myself in my husband's old shirt
And prepared once again to do battle with dirt---

I said to myself, as I only can
"You can't spend a winter disguised as a man!"

So--away with the last of the sour cream dip,
Get rid of the fruit cake, every cracker and chip

Every last bit of food that I like must be banished
Till all the additional ounces have vanished.

I won't have a cookie--not even a lick.
I'll want only to chew on a long celery stick.

I won't have hot biscuits, or corn bread, or pie,
I'll munch on a carrot and quietly cry.

I'm hungry, I'm lonesome, and life is a bore---
But isn't that what January is for?

Unable to giggle, no longer a riot.
Happy New Year to all and to all a good diet!

Ain't it the truth!.... This year I've done away with Christmas baking... but still between the parties and the family meals it is sure to add a few unwanted pounds to the waistline.  A visit home for the holidays always means dad stocks up on 2 tons of chocolates and nuts... then there is always pies and dainties and big breakfasts.... Next year I'll lose twenty before Christmas... just so I'm still ahead.

Have Yourself....

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,

Let your heart be light

Next year all our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,

Make the Yule-tide gay,

Next year all our troubles will be miles away

Once again as in olden days,

Happy golden days of yore.

Faithful friends who are dear to us

Will be near to us once more.

Some day soon we all will be together

If the Fates allow

Until then we'll have to muddle through some how.

so have yourself a merry little Christmas now

One of my favorite Christmas songs... I love it so much.... I get sick of Christmas carols pretty quickly.... there are a few that always warm my heart strings... and this is one of them :)  Enjoy!

Falling

Didn’t want you till I met

Didn’t need you in my life

Didn’t need the hurt and pain

I didn’t need the strife

Never wanted you to kiss me

Until I felt your lips

Never wanted you to hold me

Till your hands were on my hips

Never wanted you to leave me

Didn’t want to say goodbye

Never wanted you to go away

Didn’t want to have to cry

Didn’t want to hurt you

Never thought of it at all

Never knew that this would happen

Didn't think that I would fall

Sad huh?  Sorry I've been sick the last couple days so I haven't been much in the blogging mood... truth is I'm not right now either lol.  But I thought the least I could do was post a poem... This is an old one but one of my favorites.   Reminds me of that old adage "You can't help who you fall in love with,"
  and it's true.  You can know someone is absolutely wrong for you... but you want them anyway... It's why wives stay in abusive relationships or with cheating husbands.  Sometimes we are willing to forgive pretty much anything of the ones we love.

Special To Me

Special To Me

(From: Phantom Of The Paradise)

Caught up in your wheelin' dealin' you've got no time left for simple feelin'

I thought I knew you but I didn't know you at all

Trapped inside your world of worry you miss so much when you always hurry

Well slow down baby you'll only get hurt if you fall

Well you told me one time that you'd be somebody

That you weren't workin' just to survive

But you're workin' so hard that you don't even know you're alive

Workin' so hard to be somebody special not working just to survive

Well you're special to me babe but what I don't see babe is

Where you go once you arrive

Where we go once we arrive

Damn all evil that takes possession until your pipe dreams become obsessions

They scare me baby and we should have nothing to fear

I'm no child but I can't help wonder it seems like some kind of spell you're under

You're listnin' baby but somehow you don't really hear

Well you told me one time that you'd be somebody

That you weren't workin' just to survive

But you're workin' so hard that you don't even know you're alive

Workin' so hard to be somebody special not working just to survive

Well you're special to me babe but what I don't see babe is

Where you go once you arrive

Where we go once we arrive

I'm sick today and have no desire to blog... so instead I'm leaving you with a song from Phantom Of The Paradise... a very old movie that I loved when I was a kid.  It's a rock version of Phantom Of the Opera... and well worth the watch.... Have a listen:

In the sky

Even lovers have to go

Even lovers have to die

It’s impossible to live

But we’ll try (2X)

Even lovers have to leave

Even lovers say goodbye

We will meet again someday

In the sky (2X)

We will meet again someday

In the sky (2X)

Chorus

And baby I need you to stay

And maybe I need you in my arms

Please help me find a way

To the stars

Where we can play, and play, and play

Dust is settling in my arms

I can not move because the pain

Is too much for me to take

(Bridge)

It’s not easy being me

It’s not easy loving you

I wish you’d tell me what to do

To get through (2X)

I wish you’d tell me what to do

To get through (2X)

Chorus (2X)

To fade…

This is the second song I ever wrote and I really love it....  It's kinda got an Our Lady Peace feel to it in my head... As always I invite anyone to turn these lyrics into an actual song... though I do wish to hear the final product.

Love

To be there for you

To care for you

To wait for you

To live for you

To give to you

To laugh with you

To smile with you

To dance with you

To die with you

To cry with you

To kiss you

To hold you

To hug you

To love you

Love :)......

I want to ravage you

I’d like to take you in my arms

Embrace you

And hold you like that forever

I’d like to taste you

Feel you

Are your lips as soft as they appear

Is your body hard and strong

Is it soft and beautiful

Do you want to let me know

Can you feel my gaze on you

I want to ravage you

Throw you down

Take you out

Let you in

I’d like to let my lips linger

In places they should not

I’d like to touch you

In places no one has before

I want to ravage you

Throw you down

Take you out

Let you in

I want to kiss you all over

I want my tongue to meet your skin

I want to ravage you

Let me in

I love the beginning of new relationships... The unknown... the passion... the heat... It's the most intoxicating feeling in the world... distracting beyond belief and all consuming.  If a person could find someone who that feeling never went away with.... Then they could be really and truly happy.

On love

 - Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired (Robert Frost)

Love this quote... It's dead on... that is what we all want... someone who really wants us; flaws and all.  Yes having someone you're attracted to, that makes you laugh, that you have things in common with... these are all important but what you ultimately want and need... is to be desired.

Ride a Cowboy

(Intro)
DUM-DE-DE-DUM, DE-DE-DUM-DE-DE-DUM, DE-DAA-DAAAAA
DUM-DE-DE-DUM, DE-DE-DUM-DE-DE-DUM, DE-DAA-DAA-DAA-DAA-DAAAA!

Well, I walk into the room
Passing out hundred dollar bills
And it kills and it thrills like the horns on my Silverado grill
And I buy the bar a double round of crown
And everybody's getting down 
An' this town ain't never gonna be the same.

(Chorus:)
Cause I saddle up my horse
And I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise
Cause the girls
They are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway
On my old stud Leroy
And the girls say
Save a horse, ride a cowboy.
Everybody says
Save a horse, Ride a cowboy

Well I don't give a dang about nothing
I'm singing and Bling- Blanging
While the girls are drinking
Long necks down!
And I wouldn't trade ol' Leroy
Or my Chevrolet for your Escalade
Or your freak parade
I'm the only John Wayne left in this town

And I saddle up my horse
And I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise
Cause the girls
They are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway
On my old stud Leroy
And the girls say
Save a horse, ride a cowboy.
Everybody says
Save a horse, Ride a cowboy

(Spoken:)
I'm a thourough-bred
That's what she said
In the back of my truck bed
As I was gettin' buzzed on suds
Out on some back country road.
We where flying high
Fine as wine, having ourselves a big and rich time
And I was going, just about as far as she'd let me go.
But her evaluation
Of my cowboy reputation
Had me begging for salvation
All night long
So I took her out giggin frogs
Introduced her to my old bird dog
And sang her every Wilie Nelson song I could think of

And we made love
And I saddle up my horse
And I ride into the city
I make a lot of noise
Cause the girls
They are so pretty
Riding up and down Broadway
On my old stud Leroy
And the girls say
Save a horse, ride a cowboy.
Everybody says
Save a horse, Ride a cowboy

What? What?
Save A Horse Ride A Cowboy
Everybody says
Save a Horse Ride a Cowboy

Not much to say.... just really love this song ;) Have a listen:

My Inbox

I've become very attached to my inbox

Checking it over and over

Waiting for a word

Any word from you

I see the message appear

And smile like a kid in a candy store

It's an incredible feeling

My chores have dropped from my to do list

And I don't even want to leave my chair

I don't want to miss one second of a chance to talk to you

I pick up the phone and dial your number

My stomach queasy... I want to hear you

Your voice is a new kind of music to my ears

And I like it very much

I view the pictures you've sent daily

Can't wait to hold you against me

Just counting the days until I do

In the mean time;

I've become very attached to my inbox

It's my life line to you

I've made a new friend.... :) I like my new friend.... It's amazing how you can connect with someone over the internet.  I've been talking to a lot of new people lately and ehhh... No big thing but then I start talking to (My new friend ;)... And it's like we've known each other forever... like I could tell him anything... I almost feel addicted to talking to him... It's not normal lol.... But I like it :)

Completion of the soul

I lie wrapped in your arms

I can feel you breathing

I want to lie like this forever

Your warm naked skin presses to mine

It is unbelievable how happy you make me

Where will we end up?

Maybe in a year you’ll hate me

Maybe in 3 we will be married

I don’t want to think about it

I want to concentrate on this moment here and now

I want it all to soak in

So I can remember your smell

And the way you taste

It’s amazing what you do to me

You make me crazy

I love the way you make me smile

Even when I’m feeling low

I love the way your eyes light up when you’re coming on to me

I love the way your skin feels like silk when it slides against mine

But most of all I love the way you can fill me with a simple smile

The way you complete me just by being around

I never knew such a thing existed

There's nothing like the beginning of a romance... the anticipation... the passion... the intensity.  If you are in a relationship long enough those feelings often fade but hopefully what you're left with is a friend that fills your life and is there for you like no one else could be.  It's so rare these days to come across a couple that lasts... I fear that in my generation there will be very few couples that make it til old age... We give up too easily... no one is loyal... My generation as a whole is selfish... unwilling to compromise or bend even for the ones they love... I like to think that I am not this type of person and I like to think that I will get lucky and find someone who still values these very important things.

Choices

Choices

(Author: Unknown)

Come to me temptation implores

And I will open passions doors

Let loose the floodgates of desire

To burn your body with it’s fire

Come to me sweet love implores

And I will open heavens doors

Let loose the floodgates of your heart

To pierce your soul with cupids dart

Be careful my friend which one you choose

For one will heal…the other bruise

I often ask myself why we want the things that are no good for us.... Whether it be a slice of chocolate cake, an extra glass of wine, or a partner that leaves us hurting.  The truth is that desire is what leads us.  Your mind will justify desire no matter how much logic tells you not to go there.  We has humans want what we want when we want it and in today's society there is an even stronger urge to meet those desires.  People no longer have patience and sad to say but many also do not have values or logic with them either.  The solution.  THINK!  Dont act on impulse... cause those impulsive instincts seldom lead to anything good.  Instead ask your self what you want from your life as a whole and choose the path that takes you to it.

Upon Morn

The stillness of his hands moved her

In ways she’d never known

As if his life was washing through her

Merging with her own

She wanted to conceal it

But oh how she let him see

She couldn't stand, she couldn't sit

The blood rushed on endlessly

And when he backed away from her

She felt his passion more

She fought with demons he had stirred

Until she could not endure

She pleaded with him, stay awhile

But morn was drawing near

And she had to face her own denial

That he was never really here

We're all looking for that perfect partner... whether it be for companionship, or intimacy.  Even if we are enjoying being single (as I am).  We're still watching the people that come into our lives and wondering... is this person the one for me?  The fact of the matter is though... those kind of relationships don't usually just happen... the idea of a perfect man or a perfect woman is ridiculous.  Instead we have to work at it, compromise and accept people.   The most important part of that is honesty.  First being honest with yourself about what you really want.  Then being honest with the people in your life.  

Proud

PROUD

(Performed by: Heather Small)

I look into the window of my mind
Reflections of the fears I know I've left behind
I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
It's never too late to try
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?

Still so many answers I don't know
Realize that to question is how we grow
So I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
It's never too late to try
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?

We need a change
Do it today
I can feel my spirit rising
We need a change
So do it today
'Cause I can see a clear horizon

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?
'Cause you could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
What have you done today
You could be so many people?
Just make that break for freedom
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?

I love this song.   It was the theme song for my favorite TV show... Queer as Folk... Which I've talked about on here before.  It's empowering.  And though it is the perfect song for gay pride it also can apply to every person in every walk of life.  It asks the most important question anyone can ask themselves.... So, what have YOU done today to make you feel proud?

Listen to the song here: