Who I am

I’ve never finished what I’ve started

Never coped with the departed

Never accepted all the facts

Never followed the right track

I’ve always lost my way in life

Consumed by my own pain and strife

Never accept the help I seek

Can’t let people see I’m weak

I couldn’t spare my pride for love

And so I never get enough

No one could ever know my shame

I’m too scared to share the pain

I’m lonely each and every night

But I’m too shy to make things right

I worry till I cannot sleep

Bit my tongue each time I speak

I lose my faith each time I’m mad

And long for a life I’ll never have

I wrote this more than 10 years ago.... Although some of these things are still valid... most are not... I don't feel like I am this person anymore... I feel stronger... more determined... more in charge of my destiny than I ever thought I would be... I am no longer this girl... and I love who I am today.