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4.30.2013

Judgement



Innocent till proven guilty
Right until he’s proven wrong
These words are often filthy
Lies of justice passed along
Tears can stream in rivers
And still be turned around
Cause all emotion he delivers
Will be suspect when it’s found
If he’s happy; he’s denying
If he’s sad; it’s lies he’s crying
If he’s strong; it’s just a show
If he’s sure; he doesn’t know
If he’s weak; it’s cause he did it
If he’s scared; he can’t admit it
Cause no matter what he’s stating
Someone out there’s debating
If he’s angry; then it’s true
God forbid he come unglued
For help only makes them certain
That “He’ll get what he’s deserving”
If he’s lonely; can’t admit it
They’ll only say that’s why he did it
If he’s hurting; has to hide it
The public's view is all one sided
One thing is for certain
He will get what he’s deserving
If he’s strong for those who love him
Than only the Lord can judge him




I wrote this one a long time ago about the Michael Jackson scandal... I love this poem... cause it doesn't only talk about him... but of the state of society as a whole.  People now are so quick to judge... Never giving the benefit of doubt... never trusting... always skeptical....

At this point in my life when things are so good, I see the bad even more... and wish things were different.

4.26.2013

Better Today

Better Today
(As Performed by: Coffey Anderson)


[Verse 1]
To see your face, to hear your voice
And oh, to touch you is a dream come true
So I'm standing here, with my hand held out
Knowing that your love will never fade, I stand amazed without a doubt

[Chorus]
And I wanna hear your voice, in the morning when I rise
I think I know I'm just a normal man, only made of sand except when you're by my side
Will you love me, teach me, don't leave me I pray
And when I, and I'm thinking of the times
Your hands in mine, together we will stay
You made me better today
Better than I was before
And now my heart can rest and I will search no more
You made me better today, today, today

[Verse 2]
My heart has wings
Oh you take me away
And every prayer I've ever prayed was answered today
So I'm standfing here, with my hand held out
Knowing that my love will never leave
My hearts on my sleeve and now I believe

[Chorus]
And I wanna hear your voice in the morning when I rise
I think I know I'm just a normal man, only made of sand except when you're by my side
Will you love me, teach me, don't leave me I pray
And when I, and I'm thinking of the times
Your hands in mine, together we will stay
You made me better today
Better than I was before
And now my heart can rest and I will search no more
You made me better today

[Verse 3]
I stand proclaimed, true love is here to stay
I stand proclaimed, forever starts today
Today...
You made me better today
Than I was before
And now my heart can rest and I will search no more
Cuz you made me better today, than I was before
And now my heart can rest
And I will search no more
You made me better today
Today...
Made me better today.


When it rains it pours.... My life has been kinda the opposite lately... everything seems to be coming together for me and I can only Bless the Lord for all the beautiful changes in my life.  My faith has not been truly tested yet I guess but when it is (as it always will be) I will remember the happiness I feel today and how much I owe to this new life I've started.  Thank you Lord for all your blessings.

This a beautiful song... 


4.25.2013

The World

I wanna see the world with you
The caves, the streams, the mountains high
Stand within the salty sea
Let the desert suck us dry
I want to see the ruins
Mystic castles, ancient homes
Words written in another time
Lose myself in catacombs
I want to swim in rivers wild
Hold your hand under foreign skies
To see the lights of Paris, Rome
And Venice in your eyes
Make love to you ocean side
As the tide comes rolling in
Hear you laughing in a canyon
Watch you dancing in the wind
I want to see the world with you
And let our love linger behind
Leave a part of us, a part of this
To the world for all it’s time


What a long week this is lol... I feel like I am holding my breath just waiting for Saturday when I will go back to Swan and see him again....  Yes, I am going back this weekend... just for one night, and yes, he is the primary reason for my trip... I feel like I'm going crazy...  What kind of person travels 4 hours out of the way to spend just one evening with a man she's just barely started dating... Only it doesn't feel like we've just started dating...  With the history that we have and the fact that I've been in love with him for 13 years it's hard to start at square one... Believe it or not I am trying to restrain myself... It's hard though when you've dreamed of someone for so long to finally get to hold them and touch them and kiss them and not want more... not want to just live in those moments forever.  Nothing else can compare.

4.24.2013

The Way You Smile

The Way You Smile
(As Performed by: Newsong)

I love the look on your face when you first see me
The way that you laugh at the silliest things
I love the way that you love so unselfishly
You bring out the best in everything
There's a million more, these are just a few
Of the many reasons I love you

But there's something about the way you smile
I can see forever in your eyes
Telling me I'm yours and you are mine
The way that you smile
We're like two lovers in sweet romance
You're my leading lady and I'm your man
You can say I love you in just one glance
The way you smile
The way you smile
The way you smile

The way you open the door you always see about me
Treat me like I'm a princess boy you're so sweet
Love the way that I feel when I'm in your arms
You whisper "You're beautiful" so safe and warm
There's a million more, these are just a few
Of the many reasons I love you

But there's something about the way you smile
I can see forever in your eyes
Telling me I'm yours and you're all mine
The way that you smile
We're like two lovers in sweet romance
I'm your leading lady and you're man
You can say I love you with just a glance
The way you smile
The way you smile
The way you smile

Today's the first day of me and you
Where ever you go I'll be there to
If God be for us, who can be against us
Who can be against us

But there's something about the way you smile
I can see forever in your eyes
Telling me I'm yours and you're all mine
The way that you smile
We're like two lovers in sweet romance
You're my leading lady and you're my man
You can say I love you with just a glance
The way you smile
The way you smile
The way you smile
Today's the first day of me and you
Where ever you go I'll be there to
The way you smile
Oh I love the way you smile
The way you smile 


I've only recently discovered this song but right now it's like an anthem playing over and over in my head... So fitting to my life at the moment... Life is good today and Bless the Lord for this new path in my life.  

 

4.23.2013

This Love

I've never known such warmth
As the warmth found in your arms
Your smile as you kiss me
The beating of your heart
The way you call me beautiful 
Your breath upon my lips
Every dream I've ever had
Could not compare to this
Your eyes so tender, soft and sweet
I'm amazed at every turn
I've never known such gentleness
But with every touch I learn
For years I only wished for this
Now the moment's finally come
My hopes and dreams could never match
The truth behind this love


 
Well... I'm back.... And I soooo... don't want to be.  I am coming off the best week of my life and reality right now seems like a slap in the face.  I spent the most fabulous week with the love of my life and though I've always known we would end up here.... the fact that that time has finally come is so much to take in.  See when we dated before, it was in secret, it was passion and heat and quick rendezvous', which don't get me wrong... there was a lot of fun in that but this is so much different... so much better... To wake up beside him, to go out for breakfast with him, to spend hours by his side and get to know who he really is.... these are things I never had much opportunity for in the past.  As my best friend Stella says "I'm screwed," because I loved him long before I knew how truly gentle and sweet and wonderful he really was... now I am distracted to the point of confusion and here I sit at my desk... four hours away... trying to focus on things that have no connection to the monumental change that is taking place in my life.  I fear I will be mostly useless for the next 10 weeks until I can be closer to him.  Useless.... but happy.
 

4.12.2013

Love Me

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,
"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
Of her, I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me. 




Love this song :)   Well that's it for me for a few days... I'm off to Swan River for a week and a bit... I wont be on here for awhile... I will be to busy looking for a new job and tending to my mother (she just had surgery).... But I'll back... While I'm away read some of my old blogs and leave me some comments will ya?


4.11.2013

I'll Be Here



If you need a friend to call on, count on
I’ll be here
If you need a shoulder, a place to go
I’ll be here
If you need to scream, to stomp your feet
I’ll be here
If you need to cry, to let it out
I’ll be here
When times are tough, too tough to take
I’ll be here
When you’re feeling lost or insecure
I’ll be here
When the world’s too much
When darkness calls
When life seems hopeless
When you build up those walls
If you lose faith
All you hold dear
Just let it go
I’ll be here




I wrote this poem for my boys.  Love you so much guys :)


4.10.2013

I Survived You

I Survived You
(As Performed By: Clay Aiken)

I see the picture clearer now
And the fog has lifted
The wool you tried to pull over my eyes was clever
Yeah you're gifted
But you forgot to dot some i's and cross some t's along the way
I'm better now despite you baby
I'm strong these days
Stronger

Chorus:
I survived the crash
Survived the burn
Survived the worst yeah baby but I learned
Survived the lies
Survived the blues
Almost killed me but I survived the truth
And when you wrote me off like I was doomed
I survived you

I can look in the mirror now
It's been a slow awakening
Haunted by a heart full of you
Couldn't help mistaking
That you could ever care for anyone
Anyone but yourself
That you would have to have a conscience baby
Good luck, I wish you well

Chorus

This heart's been torn in two
Cut and bruised
With too many bitter endings
And I'll be damned if I have thoughts of you
Rain on my new beginning

Okay so I will admit it... I loved Clay Aiken when he was on American Idol.  When he sang Unchained Melody.... I got goose bumps....  It's sad to see now that after the release of his first album he kind of fizzled away into oblivion but there were a couple good songs on the album.... The one below is one of them....



4.09.2013

Emptiness

Another day passes
The slowly ticking clock never really changing
I'm waiting for the life I need
The life that starts with you
I'm counting off the seconds
Each one goes on forever
My life is at standstill
When can I finally carry on?
Those brief moments I behold you
Seem unreal, seem unseen
They are gone is such hurry
I am numb to them now
Till I can really hold you
Till I can feel your breath on mine
There is nothing for me, nothing
But an emptiness inside


My life is at a standing still right now.... It sucks!  My brief visits to Swan are just a tease of what my life could be in a few months.... Every day I stroke of the calendar and it seems like forever until I will finally be there.... Next week I am going down to do some job hunting... searching for a job will definitely help me feel like I am finally moving forward.  When I get back from Swan I only have 10 more weeks.... Seems like a lifetime.

4.08.2013

Strawberry Wine

He was working through college on my grandpa's farm
I was thirsting for for knowledge and he had a car
I was caught somewhere between a woman and a child
When one restless summer we found love growing wild
On the banks of the river on a well beaten path
Funny how those memories they last

Like strawberry wine and seventeen
The hot July moon saw everything
My first taste of love oh bittersweet
Green on the vine
Like strawberry wine

I still remember when thirty was old
My biggest fear was September when he had to go
A few cards and letters and one long distance call
We drifted away like the leaves in the fall
But year after year I come back to this place
Just to remember the taste

Of strawberry wine and seventeen
The hot July moon saw everything
My first taste of love oh bittersweet
Green on the vine
Like strawberry wine

The fields have grown over now
Years since they've seen a plow
There's nothing time hasn't touched
Is it really him or the loss of my innocence
I've been missing so much

Like strawberry wine and seventeen
The hot July moon saw everything
My first taste of love oh bittersweet
Green on the vine
Like strawberry wine



17 was the best year of my life.... The beginning of it really... Full of possibilities and the first real love that would stay with me always.  This song is someone else story but every time I hear it, it takes me back to my own.  That's what a good song does.



4.05.2013

A Painted House

A Painted House Excerpt
(Written by: John Grisham)

Chapter I
The hill people and the Mexicans arrived on the same day. It was a Wednesday, early in September 1952. The Cardinals were five games behind the Dodgers with three weeks to go, and the season looked hopeless. The cotton, however, was waist-high to my father, over my head, and he and my grandfather could be heard before supper whispering words that were seldom heard. It could be a “good crop.”
They were farmers, hardworking men who embraced pessimism only when discussing the weather and the crops. There was too much sun, or too much rain, or the threat of floods in the lowlands, or the rising prices of seed and fertilizer, or the uncertainties of the markets. On the most perfect of days, my mother would quietly say to me, “Don’t worry. The men will find something to worry about.”
Pappy, my grandfather, was worried about the price for labor when we went searching for the hill people. They were paid for every hundred pounds of cotton they picked. The previous year, according to him, it was $1.50 per hundred. He’d already heard rumors that a farmer over in Lake City was offering $1.60.
This played heavily on his mind as we rode to town. He never talked when he drove, and this was because, according to my mother, not much of a driver herself, he was afraid of motorized vehicles. His truck was a 1939 Ford, and with the exception of our old John Deere tractor, it was our sole means of transportation. This was no particular problem except when we drove to church and my mother and grandmother were forced to sit snugly together up front in their Sunday best while my father and I rode in the back, engulfed in dust. Modern sedans were scarce in rural Arkansas.
Pappy drove thirty-seven miles per hour. His theory was that every automobile had a speed at which it ran most efficiently, and through some vaguely defined method he had determined that his old truck should go thirty-seven. My mother said (to me) that it was ridiculous. She also said he and my father had once fought over whether the truck should go faster. But my father rarely drove it, and if I happened to be riding with him, he would level off at thirty-seven, out of respect for Pappy. My mother said she suspected he drove much faster when he was alone.
We turned onto Highway 135, and, as always, I watched Pappy carefully shift the gears—pressing slowly on the clutch, delicately prodding the stick shift on the steering column—until the truck reached its perfect speed. Then I leaned over to check the speedometer: thirty-seven. He smiled at me as if we both agreed that the truck belonged at that speed.
Highway 135 ran straight and flat through the farm country of the Arkansas Delta. On both sides as far as I could see, the fields were white with cotton. It was time for the harvest, a wonderful season for me because they turned out school for two months. For my grandfather, though, it was a time of endless worry.

On the right, at the Jordan place, we saw a group of Mexicans working in the field near the road. They were stooped at the waist, their cotton sacks draped behind them, their hands moving deftly through the stalks, tearing off the bolls. Pappy grunted. He didn’t like the Jordans because they were Methodists—and Cubs fans. Now that they already had workers in their fields, there was another reason to dislike them.
The distance from our farm to town was fewer than eight miles, but at thirty-seven miles an hour, the trip took twenty minutes. Always twenty minutes, even with little traffic. Pappy didn’t believe in passing slower vehicles in front of him. Of course, he was usually the slow one. Near Black Oak, we caught up to a trailer filled to the top with snowy mounds of freshly picked cotton. A tarp covered the front half, and the Montgomery twins, who were my age, playfully bounced around in all that cotton until they saw us on the road below them. Then they stopped and waved. I waved back, but my grandfather did not. When he drove, he never waved or nodded at folks, and this was, my mother said, because he was afraid to take his hands from the wheel. She said people talked about him behind his back, saying he was rude and arrogant. Personally, I don’t think he cared how the gossip ran.
We followed the Montgomery trailer until it turned at the cotton gin. It was pulled by their old Massey Harris tractor, and driven by Frank, the eldest Montgomery boy, who had dropped out of school in the fifth grade and was considered by everyone at church to be headed for serious trouble.
Highway 135 became Main Street for the short stretch it took to negotiate Black Oak. We passed the Black Oak Baptist Church, one of the few times we’d pass without stopping for some type of service. Every store, shop, business, church, even the school, faced Main Street, and on Saturdays the traffic inched along, bumper to bumper, as the country folks flocked to town for their weekly shopping. But it was Wednesday, and when we got into town, we parked in front of Pop and Pearl Watson’s grocery store on Main.
I waited on the sidewalk until my grandfather nodded in the direction of the store. That was my cue to go inside and purchase a Tootsie Roll, on credit. It only cost a penny, but it was not a foregone conclusion that I would get one every trip to town. Occasionally, he wouldn’t nod, but I would enter the store anyway and loiter around the cash register long enough for Pearl to sneak me one, which always came with strict instructions not to tell my grandfather. She was afraid of him. Eli Chandler was a poor man, but he was intensely proud. He would starve to death before he took free food, which, on his list, included Tootsie Rolls. He would’ve beaten me with a stick if he knew I had accepted a piece of candy, so Pearl Watson had no trouble swearing me to secrecy.
But this time I got the nod. As always, Pearl was dusting the counter when I entered and gave her a stiff hug. Then I grabbed a Tootsie Roll from the jar next to the cash register. I signed the charge slip with great flair, and Pearl inspected my penmanship. “It’s getting better, Luke,” she said.
“Not bad for a seven-year-old,” I said. Because of my mother, I had been practicing my name in cursive writing for two years. “Where’s Pop?” I asked. They were the only adults I knew who insisted I call them by their “first” names, but only in the store when no one else was listening. If a customer walked in, then it was suddenly Mr. and Mrs. Watson. I told no one but my mother this, and she told me she was certain no other child held such privilege.
“In the back, putting up stock,” Pearl said. “Where’s your grandfather?”
It was Pearl’s calling in life to monitor the movements of the town’s population, so any question was usually answered with another.
“The Tea Shoppe, checking on the Mexicans. Can I go back there?” I was determined to outquestion her.
“Better not. Y’all using hill people, too?”
“If we can find them. Eli says they don’t come down like they used to. He also thinks they’re all half crazy. Where’s Champ?” Champ was the store’s ancient beagle, which never left Pop’s side.
Pearl grinned whenever I called my grandfather by his first name. She was about to ask me a question when the small bell clanged as the door opened and closed. A genuine Mexican walked in, alone and timid, as they all seemed to be at first. Pearl nodded politely at the new customer.
I shouted, “Buenos días, señor!”
The Mexican grinned and said sheepishly, “Buenos días,” before disappearing into the back of the store.
“They’re good people,” Pearl said under her breath, as if the Mexican spoke English and might be offended by something nice she said. I bit into my Tootsie Roll and chewed it slowly while rewrapping and pocketing the other half.
“Eli’s worried about payin’ them too much,” I said. With a customer in the store, Pearl was suddenly busy again, dusting and straightening around the only cash register.
“Eli worries about everything,” she said.
“He’s a farmer.”
“Are you going to be a farmer?”
“No ma’am. A baseball player.”
“For the Cardinals?”
“Of course.”
Pearl hummed for a bit while I waited for the Mexican. I had some more Spanish I was anxious to try.
The old wooden shelves were bursting with fresh groceries. I loved the store during picking season because Pop filled it from floor to ceiling. The crops were coming in, and money was changing hands.
Pappy opened the door just wide enough to stick his head in. “Let’s go,” he said; then, “Howdy, Pearl.”
“Howdy, Eli,” she said as she patted my head and sent me away.
“Where are the Mexicans?” I asked Pappy when we were outside.
“Should be in later this afternoon.”
We got back in the truck and left town in the direction of Jonesboro, where my grandfather always found the hill people.

We parked on the shoulder of the highway, near the intersection of a gravel road. In Pappy’s opinion, it was the best spot in the county to catch the hill people. I wasn’t so sure. He’d been trying to hire some for a week with no results. We sat on the tailgate in the scorching sun in complete silence for half an hour before the first truck stopped. It was clean and had good tires. If we were lucky enough to find hill people, they would live with us for the next two months. We wanted folks who were neat, and the fact that this truck was much nicer than Pappy’s was a good sign.
“Afternoon,” Pappy said when the engine was turned off.
“Howdy,” said the driver.
“Where y’all from?” asked Pappy.
“Up north of Hardy.”
With no traffic around, my grandfather stood on the pavement, a pleasant expression on his face, taking in the truck and its contents. The driver and his wife sat in the cab with a small girl between them. Three large teenaged boys were napping in the back. Everyone appeared to be healthy and well dressed. I could tell Pappy wanted these people.
“Y’all lookin’ for work?” he asked.
“Yep. Lookin’ for Lloyd Crenshaw, somewhere west of Black Oak.” My grandfather pointed this way and that, and they drove off. We watched them until they were out of sight.
He could’ve offered them more than Mr. Crenshaw was promising. Hill people were notorious for negotiating their labor. Last year, in the middle of the first picking on our place, the Fulbrights from Calico Rock disappeared one Sunday night and went to work for a farmer ten miles away.
But Pappy was not dishonest, nor did he want to start a bidding war.
We tossed a baseball along the edge of a cotton field, stopping whenever a truck approached.
My glove was a Rawlings that Santa had delivered the Christmas before. I slept with it nightly and oiled it weekly, and nothing was as dear to my soul.
My grandfather, who had taught me how to throw and catch and hit, didn’t need a glove. His large, callused hands absorbed my throws without the slightest sting.
Though he was a quiet man who never bragged, Eli Chandler had been a legendary baseball player. At the age of seventeen, he had signed a contract with the Cardinals to play professional baseball. But the First War called him, and not long after he came home, his father died. Pappy had no choice but to become a farmer.
Pop Watson loved to tell me stories of how great Eli Chandler had been—how far he could hit a baseball, how hard he could throw one. “Probably the greatest ever from Arkansas,” was Pop’s assessment.
“Better than Dizzy Dean?” I would ask.
“Not even close,” Pop would say, sighing.
When I relayed these stories to my mother, she always smiled and said, “Be careful. Pop tells tales.”
Pappy, who was rubbing the baseball in his mammoth hands, cocked his head at the sound of a vehicle. Coming from the west was a truck with a trailer behind it. From a quarter of a mile away we could tell they were hill people. We walked to the shoulder of the road and waited as the driver downshifted, gears crunching and whining as he brought the truck to a stop.
I counted seven heads, five in the truck, two in the trailer.
“Howdy,” the driver said slowly, sizing up my grandfather as we in turn quickly scrutinized them.
“Good afternoon,” Pappy said, taking a step closer but still keeping his distance.
Tobacco juice lined the lower lip of the driver. This was an ominous sign. My mother thought most hill people were prone to bad hygiene and bad habits. Tobacco and alcohol were forbidden in our home. We were Baptists.
“Name’s Spruill,” he said.
“Eli Chandler. Nice to meet you. Y’all lookin’ for work?”
“Yep.”
“Where you from?”
“Eureka Springs.”
The truck was almost as old as Pappy’s, with slick tires and a cracked windshield and rusted fenders and what looked like faded blue paint under a layer of dust. A tier had been constructed above the bed, and it was crammed with cardboard boxes and burlap bags filled with supplies. Under it, on the floor of the bed, a mattress was wedged next to the cab. Two large boys stood on it, both staring blankly at me. Sitting on the tailgate, barefoot and shirtless, was a heavy young man with massive shoulders and a neck as thick as a stump. He spat tobacco juice between the truck and the trailer and seemed oblivious to Pappy and me. He swung his feet slowly, then spat again, never looking away from the asphalt beneath him.
“I’m lookin’ for field hands,” Pappy said.
“How much you payin’?” Mr. Spruill asked.
“One-sixty a hundred,” Pappy said.
Mr. Spruill frowned and looked at the woman beside him. They mumbled something.
It was at this point in the ritual that quick decisions had to be made. We had to decide whether we wanted these people living with us. And they had to accept or reject our price.
“What kinda cotton?” Mr. Spruill asked.
“Stoneville,” my grandfather said. “The bolls are ready. It’ll be easy to pick.” Mr. Spruill could look around him and see the bolls bursting. The sun and soil and rains had cooperated so far. Pappy, of course, had been fretting over some dire rainfall prediction in the Farmers’ Almanac.
“We got one-sixty last year,” Mr. Spruill said.
I didn’t care for money talk, so I ambled along the center line to inspect the trailer. The tires on the trailer were even balder than those on the truck. One was half flat from the load. It was a good thing that their journey was almost over.
Rising in one corner of the trailer, with her elbows resting on the plank siding, was a very pretty girl. She had dark hair pulled tightly behind her head and big brown eyes. She was younger than my mother, but certainly a lot older than I was, and I couldn’t help but stare.
“What’s your name?” she said.
“Luke,” I said, kicking a rock. My cheeks were immediately warm. “What’s yours?”
“Tally. How old are you?”
“Seven. How old are you?”
“Seventeen.”
“How long you been ridin’ in that trailer?”
“Day and a half.”
She was barefoot, and her dress was dirty and very tight—tight all the way to her knees. This was the first time I remember really examining a girl. She watched me with a knowing smile. A kid sat on a crate next to her with his back to me, and he slowly turned around and looked at me as if I weren’t there. He had green eyes and a long forehead covered with sticky black hair. His left arm appeared to be useless.
“This is Trot,” she said. “He ain’t right.”
“Nice to meet you, Trot,” I said, but his eyes looked away. He acted as if he hadn’t heard me.
“How old is he?” I asked her.
“Twelve. He’s a cripple.”
Trot turned abruptly to face a corner, his bad arm flopping lifelessly. My friend Dewayne said that hill people married their cousins and that’s why there were so many defects in their families.
Tally appeared to be perfect, though. She gazed thoughtfully across the cotton fields, and I admired her dirty dress once again.
I knew my grandfather and Mr. Spruill had come to terms because Mr. Spruill started his truck. I walked past the trailer, past the man on the tailgate who was briefly awake but still staring at the pavement, and stood beside Pappy. “Nine miles that way, take a left by a burned-out barn, then six more miles to the St. Francis River. We’re the first farm past the river on your left.”
“Bottomland?” Mr. Spruill asked, as if he were being sent into a swamp.
“Some of it is, but it’s good land.”
Mr. Spruill glanced at his wife again, then looked back at us. “Where do we set up?”
“You’ll see a shady spot in the back, next to the silo. That’s the best place.”
We watched them drive away, the gears rattling, the tires wobbling, crates and boxes and pots bouncing along.
“You don’t like them, do you?” I asked.
“They’re good folks. They’re just different.”
“I guess we’re lucky to have them, aren’t we?”
“Yes, we are.”
More field hands meant less cotton for me to pick. For the next month I would go to the fields at sunrise, drape a nine-foot cotton sack over my shoulder, and stare for a moment at an endless row of cotton, the stalks taller than I was, then plunge into them, lost as far as anyone could tell. And I would pick cotton, tearing the fluffy bolls from the stalks at a steady pace, stuffing them into the heavy sack, afraid to look down the row and be reminded of how endless it was, afraid to slow down because someone would notice. My fingers would bleed, my neck would burn, my back would hurt.
Yes, I wanted lots of help in the fields. Lots of hill people, lots of Mexicans.




Okay so most of us know who John Grisham is (My favorite author for one), he is the writer of so many criminal/legal books... Books that have been made into movies like Runaway Jury, The Rainmaker, The Firm and The Client as well as many others.... But did you know he also has several other books?  Books that do not deal with the law or criminal court cases.... A Painted House is my favorite of these books.... Though they are ALL wonderful.... Sometimes a writer's talent much surpasses his style... that he can write anything and a person will be moved by it.  I hope to one day write a book that can do this.

4.04.2013

Time



And it’s time
Time puts pressure on our lives
Responsible for all our strife
Time is empty, time is whole
Time withers the beautiful
Life will end this we know
Time will turn the young to old
Time takes the years and hurries them
Time rushes our lives
Time destroys everything
Time leaves us cold inside
Time comes and goes
Time never ends
Time is never time enough
Time is short
Our lives are too
So you better hurry up
Cause time can make you
Time can break you
Time can lose your place
Time’s too short
Time’s too long
Time can’t be replaced



I am very proud of this poem... Not because it is especially grand but because I wrote this in grade 10 as part of an english exam.... certainly not bad for a rushed poem on an exam right?  I do like the way this poem came out.

4.03.2013

Falling In Love

FALLING IN LOVE AT A COFFEE SHOP
(As performed by: Landon Pigg)

I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yes There's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you

I've seen the paths that your eyes wander down
I want to come too

I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you

No one understands me quite like you do
Through all of the shadowy corners of me

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yes there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you

I've seen the waters that make your eyes shine
Now I'm shining too

Because
Oh
Because I've fallen quite hard over you

If I didn't know you I'd rather not know
If I couldn't have you I'd rather be alone

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

All of the while
All of the while
All of the while it was you, you!




Beautiful folksy song.... Very romantic!  And what can I say...  These days it's nice to hear something so sweet.




4.02.2013

A dream

It feels like another dream
Another hope, another wish
Could you really be so close to me?
So close the beats within me hitch?
Do I really get to touch you?
Do I really see you smile?
Seems I've waited several lifetimes
For what will last for just awhile
Can I describe this moment?
The surrealness, the serene?
When I've thought of nothing else but this
Can I know it's not a dream?





What a wonderful weekend.  I can't even begin to describe how much I wanted to stay.  See this weekend I got to see the love of my life for the first time in over 8 years.  I got to hug him and see him smile.  Even hear him laugh.  For so long I've dreamt of the moment when this would happen, that moment now seems so far off... Like it was just another of many dreams, flittering away.  But it wasn't.  It was a precious gift that I am so thankful for.  To see him healthy and happy and still himself after all these years did my heart a world of good.  What the future holds in my life I have no idea... but I do know that that moment was one I will cherish forever.