No Replacement

Dignity, lost within your arms

Shame was found there in

Pride was lost after you left

Frowns where smiles had been

Heart of happiness now of pain

Tears of joy now turned to sorrow

Looking forward to the day

Now turned to dread of tomorrow

A life to live now turned to death

The glitter in my eyes now glazed

No gamble, I would always win

But since you left the stakes were raised

The salty pain of what I lost

Drips down my pale and moistened face

You were all my life was for

And can never be replaced

I really loved the way this poem came together... I wrote this in March of 2001... Not long before I moved to Flin Flon...  I guess I would have been almost 19 at the time... I love looking back through these old poems... They bring up so many memories... both good and bad... but definitely ones that are important to who I am today.  That's what my poetry was when I was younger... My diary... My safe place.  The place I went when I needed to vent... everyone needs that... for some people it's another person... for many its any of a number of art forms... for some its sports... or work... This was my way... and I still find it very therapeutic to sit down and write a poem and try to make sense of some of the thoughts that swirl around inside my brain.... Try it sometime... you may find it works for you too...