Family Tree

Family Tree

(Author: unknown)

I think that I shall never see

A thing as frightening as a tree

The family kind that doth embrace

Some members of the human race

Aunts and uncles, siblings, cousins

Descend upon us by the dozens

A tree that may at times somewhat

Drop from it a random nut

And whose branches often poke

The patience of most normal folk

Bless this growing family tree

That God hath planted close to me

I spent last weekend in Swan River for the Rodeo.  I am 30 years old and I've never missed a rodeo.  I love it... it's tradition.  It was great to see my folks as always and my kids shadow my father like... well like a shadow :)... It was a great time though my hubby had to work so we were down there solo... I got to say I liked having a bed to myself but I did miss him :)...  I visit my parents once every 6-8 weeks... I love em... God help me lol.  The point of all this is family, it is and always should be the centre of your life... work can wait, along with everything else but family is more important than anything... even if they do drive you nuts :)



Commercials

  It is difficult to produce a television documentary that is both incisive and probing when every twelve minutes one is interrupted by five rabbits singing about toilet paper (R. Serling)

Yes it is me, I am a commercial writer for radio, I am the thorn in your side, the bane of your existence... when you are waiting for that favourite song to come on and cursing because you are listening to a grocery store commercial... it is me who delays you :)  but this I promise you... I give you no more and no less info then I must.... I'm trying people :)

Pearl

Pearl

(Author: Unknown)

And his heart to her heart

Speaks only of truth

Of ancient love found

In days of youth

Of lovers who loved

In lives lived before

Of passions that burn

Strait through the core

Their touches, their kisses

His breath on her breast

All is right in heaven

For she has said yes

Such a nice poem.  Makes me think of every love story I've ever heard.  Every romantic proposal, every stunning wedding.  Sometimes love can be magical like that but remember not every one gets the magic moments... and that doesn't mean that what you have isn't magical in itself. 

The Lips Of An Angel

Honey why are you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying, is everything okay?
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me?
Will it start a fight?
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late?

There's something about a first love.  It's hard to let go and think we all go back in time sometimes and remember those feelings... That first love is something no one forgets... and nothing ever feels quite the same... Though we may fall in love again and again... They live on as our image of love.



Good Quote

If you wait to do everything until you’re sure it’s right, you’ll probably never do much of anything (Win Borden)

There has been so much death in town lately.... To all the families who've lost some one... I'm so sorry.  Young people are going far before their time in accidental and unexpected manners and for me who didn't personally know any of these people it just makes remember to live every moment of my life that I can...

Voice In The Shadows

I hear you in the night

Whispering my name, I try to follow

Light crawls through the room, hiding

Running from you’re voice but not I

I follow, longing to reach what others don’t

Wanting to touch what other’s wont

Into the shadows you creep

Leaving my body cold and numb

Numb until the pain sets in

Until I feel the loss again

Is it just me are we all drawn to the darkness... whether afraid of it or longing for it, it is something ever present in the back of our minds.... We all have darkness in us.... Some embrace it and some deny it but it is there no matter what we do.

Red Sky



RED SKY

Written by: Jim Wchimes

There’s a red sky at morning

Where I hoped you’d be

It’s a sense of belonging

That I desperately seek

As you stand in the shadows

Keeping safe from the rain

I’m aware of the sound

I’m alone once again

I’m not saying I know

Every answer on earth

I’m in tune with your words

And deciding their worth

Is it strait fact or fiction

When you’re sharing your tails

Is there somewhere to hide

When all sympathy fails

There’s a red sky at morning

Where I hoped you’d be

But the clouds have rolled in

And I’m straining to see

If there’s anything left

We can still call our own

As the fog slowly lifts

I can see I’m alone

Another poem I absolutely love.  Kinda pulls the heartstrings doesn't it?  I love how he makes you feel exactly how alone he is.  I wish I could be so elegant.

Someone like you

"Someone Like You"

(Performed by: Adele)

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, "
Yeah

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Yeah

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Yeah

 

Okay so I work at the radio station and I hear this song too often lol.  Last weekend I went to a friends house and we were doing karaoke.  Someone did this song and I listened to the full lyrics for the first time... I almost started to cry, it's amazing you can hear a song so many times without really knowing what it's about... heartbreaking.

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Anyway

In a moment my world is gone

What I fought for I never won

And it keeps falling down like rain

Changing lives and yet it’s still the same

In this lifetime we cannot know

All the passion within our souls

And keeps coming down like wine

I’m sure to drown just give me time

Chorus

Don’t wanna break but I’m already broken, baby

Just tell the truth know it’s lies that you’ve spoken, baby

Don’t wanna crack but I’m already shattered, baby

Can’t face the fact, it never really mattered, anyway

In the future, I’ll be sure

To be hostile, rather than pure

And it’s a never-ending game

But you changed the rules, now it’s not the same

Chorus (2x)

Don’t wanna break but I’m already broken, baby

Just tell the truth know it’s lies that you’ve spoken, baby

Don’t wanna crack but I’m already shattered, baby

Can’t face the fact, it never really mattered, anyway

Little more rock in this one... I like it alot lol, putting it out there again... I would love some help turning some of these lyrics into actual songs... just leave me a message!

A Mid-Summer's Night Dream

 Use me but as your spaniel, spurn me, strike me, loose me, only give me leave unworthy as I am to follow you (William Shakespeare: A Mid-Summers Night Dream)

I'm so excited!  This November Ham Sandwich is doing a production of A Mid-Summer's Night Dream... My absolute favourite play by Shakespeare.  I think it's the unrequited love... who doesn't love a great love story and I also love the ever so clever Puck.  I wish I had the guts to try out for something like that... to be a part of it.... I got some time... maybe I can work up my courage...

Your Goodbye

I can't breathe

The air around me is suffocating

My head is swimming

I can't feel you

I no longer sense you in the wind

I've held on for so long

I didn't want to let go

But you're gone

Dust

Will I ever be moved again

Will the heaviness ever fade?

Can I survive your goodbye

Sometimes letting go is impossible, sometimes hanging on is the only thing you have left.

The Hours

Far away

Even when I‘m close

You’re far away

Even when I hold you tight all day

You’re far away

From me

Words to say

Somehow I just can’t find the way

And the hours seem to fade away

We’re lost today

You see

Chorus

And as the hours pass us by

And as each new day turns to night

And like the music echos endlessly

That’s you and me today

Never moving still the same

Nothing changes but the name

And if it’s all that life is for

I can’t take it anymore

As the hours fade away

Sleepless nights

Never ending are our bitter fights

We can’t seem to find a way

To get along for just one day

And our time has slipped away

Chorus

And as the hours pass us by

And as each new day turns to night

And like the music echos endlessly

That’s you and me today

Never moving still the same

Nothing changes but the name

And if it’s all that life is for

I can’t take it anymore

As the hours fade away

And as the hours fade away

Times escaped me I can’t stay

You are all my life is for

I can’t take it anymore

And our time has seen it’s day

Chorus

 And as the hours pass us by

And if that’s all that life is for

I can’t take it anymore

As the hours fade away

Another song for you... My songs come from a different place then my poems... when I write poems I am either speaking from personal experience or writing about something I've been thinking about.  My songs come from nowhere.  I have no explanation of thought processes or inspiration... all my better songs seem to flow through my pen like water from a stream... again anyone who would like to help me turn these lyrics into actual songs... just let me know... would Love to hear them done up right :)



And as each new day turns to night

And like the music echos endlessly

That’s you and me today

Never moving still the same

Nothing changes but the name

And if it’s all that life is for

I can’t take it anymore

As the hours fade away

Underneath it all

Underneath It All

(Performed by No Doubt)

There's times where I want something more
Someone more like me
There's times when this dress rehearsal
Seems incomplete
But, you see the colours in me like no one else
And behind your dark glasses you're
You're something else

[Chorus]
You're really lovely
Underneath it all
You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lucky
Underneath it all
You're really lovely

You know some real bad tricks
And you need some discipline
But, lately you've been trying real hard
And giving me your best
And, you give me the most gorgeous sleep
That I've ever had
And when it's really bad
I guess it's not that bad

[Chorus]

So many moons that we have seen
Stumbling back next to me
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better
Better better

[Lady Saw]
You are my real Prince Charmin'
Like the heat from the fire
You were always burnin'
And each time you're around
My body keeps callin
For your touch
Your kisses and your sweet romancin'
There's an underside to you
that this here woman that adore
Aside from your temper
Everything is secure
You're good for me, baby
of that, I'm sure
Over and over again
I want more

[Gwen]
You've used up all your coupons
And all you've got left is me
And somehow I'm full of forgiveness
I guess it's meant to be

[Chorus]

You're really lovely
Underneath it all
You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lovely
Underneath it all
And you're really lovely

Love isn't perfect and anyone who is looking for perfect love is going to be sorely disappointed.  Accepting your partner for who they are is a big part of any successful relationship sometimes you have to look past the everyday battles to whats really important. 

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Went to a party, Mom

WENT TO A PARTY, MOM

(Author: Unknown)

I went to a party,

And remembered what you said.  You told me not to drink,

Mom, so I had a sprite instead.

I felt proud of myself,

The way you said I would, that I didn't drink and drive,

though some friends said I should.

I made a healthy choice,

And your advice to me was right.  The party finally ended,

and the kids drove out of sight.

I got into my car,

Sure to get home in one piece. I never knew what was

coming, Mom, something I expected least.

Now I'm lying on the pavement,

And I hear the policeman say, the kid that caused this

wreck was drunk, Mom, his voice seems far away.

My own blood's all around me,

As I try hard not to cry.  I can hear the paramedic say,

this girl is going to die.

I'm sure the guy had no idea,

While he was flying high.  Because he chose to drink and

drive, now I would have to die.

So why do people do it, Mom

Knowing that it ruins lives?  And now the pain is cutting

me, like a hundred stabbing knives.

Tell sister not to be afraid, Mom

Tell daddy to be brave.  And when I go to heaven, put "

Mommy's Girl" on my grave.

Someone should have taught him,

That it's wrong to drink and drive.  Maybe if his parents

had, I'd still be alive.

My breath is getting shorter, Mom

I'm getting really scared.  These are my final moments,

and I'm so unprepared.

I wish that you could hold me Mom,

As I lie here and die.  I wish that I could say, "I love

you, Mom!"   So I love you and good-bye.

I think we've all read this poem at one time or another.  I am terrified of the day that my kids start driving.   I don't drive much to the disappointment of my fiancee.  I cant stand being behind the wheel.  I hit the ditch the first time I drove and ever since I just can't relax.  Now that I have kids it's worse... I don't want be responsible for them being in accident.... It complicates my life but I feel safer so to me its worth it.  I am a fairly laid back person, I will not be strict with my kids, they will have a lot of freedom.  But if I ever find out they have been drinking and driving they will know the wrath of mom!

The Rose

The roses pedals fall to the floor

Waving in a downward loop

Landing in a pile of more

A slowly browning little group

No water left to feed it

No sun light in the room

So on the table it will sit

And realise its doom

It was once so bright and free

Once so innocent

It looks back on its life and sees

How wasted time was spent

Such a beautiful flower

Growing in a field of fruit

And then how it did cower

When it was cut off at the root

As the last pedal slowly falls

It sees it had no choice

It could not make all the calls

Because it had no voice



We always have a choice as human beings.  Choose weather or not to go to work each day, chose weather or not to get up in the morning, choose to eat, choose to bathe.... the most important things in life and the decisions we make.  It's those choices that define us and that that determine the course of our lives.

The Haven



THE HAVEN

(Author: Unknown)

There is something in the ally

That is native to my soul

Something calming to my being

In this dirt infested hole

Where the alley cats are crying

And the garbage is a coat

There is something there of me

Something peaceful, calm, remote

There is something of me written

On those old graffiti walls

From the hollow iron trash cans

Something from my childhood calls

Days I spent among the litter

When I wanted to be free

From the outer worlds intrusions

When I needed time to be

The alley sees me rarely now

That I am nearly grown

I no longer have the time to seek

A place to be alone

Yet when outer pressures crowd me

And I need to be apart

There stirs something of an alley

Half remembered in my heart

I grew up in Lynn Lake... for those of you who don't know where that is... it's the end of the road going north in Manitoba (except for ice roads in the winter).  Its a dingy little hole in the world... it will also always be my home.  Covered in graffiti and empty whisky bottles down the alley, it's not uncommon to see someone peeing on main street either... I hated it growing up but I had the best friends, and so many people in my live who knew me and loved me... You don't get that in other places. 

A biblical quote

So I left them up to their own hearts lust, so that they may walk in their own counsels (Psalms 81:12)

I believe in God... but... I do not believe in the bible or in organised religion.  Now let me say first off to each their own!  Believe what you want to believe and don't let nay Sayers like myself derail you.  That being said; I just don't get it. The bible has been rewritten and re translated thousands of times and you cant tell me that each interpretation doesn't add something from the person interpreting it and that being said it was written by men... and men are notoriously self involved.... have you ever said something to your husband and then ten minutes later he asks you the a question you had just given him the answer to?  Men are fallible.  After all they are only human.  That being said all these different churches and branches of religion.  All believing in virtually the same thing with tweaks and turns that they are ready to kill over.  What does it matter?  I believe that God is Good and that if you are a good person who treats people well and never sets out to intentionally hurt someone then the rest can be forgiven.  I don't believe in a cruel God and I don't believe he gave us this life thinking we weren't going to live it!

He Would Be 16

He Would Be 16

(Performed by: Michelle Wright)

She gets in her car October Friday night
Home from work down 31 past Franklin high
She can see the stadium lights she can hear the band
A thousand crazy high school kids screamin' in the stands
Quarterback and homecoming queen
Love to young to know what it means
She goes back in time oh in her mind it's like a dream

He would be would sixteen
The son she never knew
It hurt so much to give him up
But what else could she do
He would be sixteen
A child should have a home she knows her folks were right
She never heard the couple's name just that they were nice
She wonders if he's taller than his father was
Does he drive a car by now has he been in love
She shakes back to reality she knows
Things turn out the way they should be
But she just can help but ask herself does he know about me

He would be would sixteen
The son she never knew
It hurt so much to give him up
But what else could she do
He would be sixteen

She never even got to hold him
And nights like this hurts to miss
The son she's never seen
He would be sixteen
He would be sixteen

Such a sad song... When I first got pregnant I was terrified.  My hubby and I had only been dating 3 months and we definitely were ready or even wanting t be parents.  When I told him he told me it would be all right.  Later that night in the dark I said words I didn't want say.  "You know there are other options" he was quick to say that those options weren't for him and I breathed a sigh of relief.  I don't think I have the strength to give a child away.  And I know that I could NEVER have an abortion.  My kids are my life now and I love them more than anything... however hard it was... it was worth it.

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Half Senile But Still In Love

Can you imagine me in 60 years

After all the pain and all the tears

Holding hands as we roam

Through the forest of the old folks home

Stopping to catch

A breath of air

As the silver shines

In your hair

Looking at the sky above

Half senile

But still in love

It's funny what we do to our selves with love.  It causes so much pain and heartbreak.  We give ourselves to someone else knowing full well that we may lose ourselves in the process.  Is it worth it?  Of course it is!  Cause no one wants to walk through this life alone.  We all want someone to share it with and it could be that the meaning of life is the heartbreaks we find on the way.