Expert #2 from unfinished book

I didn’t sleep well that night.  Shane was thankfully asleep when I got back and I laid in the bed beside him for a long time softly crying and racked with guilt.  I hadn’t found the answers I had needed.  There was too much passion with David to tell what feelings were real and what weren’t.   I finally fell asleep and my dreams haunted me; flashing images of David and Shane both beautiful and both angry at me.  When I woke Shane was gone and I had a brief moment of panic thinking he had left me.  I got dressed and went outside.

“Hey Hun,” Shane said cheerfully as he walked across the clearing and swept me into a kiss. He was carrying his bag.

“What are you doing?” I asked fearfully.

“Just helping pack up the boat.  Ling Sue gave us a basket of fruit for the trip.  We’re leaving right away.”  I saw David come out of Ling Sue’s hut and our eyes locked briefly.  He looked away.  “How’d you sleep?”  Shane was asking.  “You were tossing and turning all morning.”

“Just overheated,” I lied, “I’ll be happy when we get back to an air conditioned world.”  He smiled and kissed my cheek

“I’m going to put these on the boat.  Want me to grab your bag?”

“Sure, I should go say goodbye to Ling Sue before we leave.  I’ll be there shortly.”  He smiled and left.  David had gone back to his hut and I debated going in to apologize.  Instead I went to see Ling Sue.  I knocked lightly on her door.

“Come in dear,” she replied.  She was sitting on her bed and Brent was behind her brushing her hair.  “Leave us Brent, we have much to discuss.”  Brent left the hut saying goodbye to me as he went.  “Please sit.” She said gesturing to the chair.

“I’ve made a big mistake!” I blurted suddenly as tears filled my eyes.  Ling Sue laughed.
            “Dry your eyes dear.  There are no mistakes in life, only events that change it.  Whether they feel like smart choices or bad ones they are always what fate intended to happen.”  Somehow this comforted me and I smiled. “You need to learn to trust your instincts and David needs to learn to control his.  You both accomplished that last night.” She said.

“But Shane...”

“Will never know” she interrupted “And though you may feel guilty, you shouldn’t.  It is the path you must follow.  The world depends on it.”

“What do you mean?  I thought my child was meant to rule hell, isn’t that a bad thing?”  She looked confused.

“You don’t know,” she nodded as if she finally understood something. “Your child will defeat Satan.  There will be no more hell, at least not like today.”

“You mean my child will eliminate evil?”

“No.  Evil exists in the heart of every one of us but your child will be a source for good like the world has never seen before.” 

So much edditing so little time.... actually that's not true... the real problem is that I have too much time.  I keep think oh I will edit tomorrow...cause I have no deadline.  Although I really would like to be through the first round of editing for mid august cause I will be taking part in a writers workshop.  So today I set myself a deadline.  I will finish my first round of editing by the beginning of august.  Now I have so little time :)